kenapa Allah temukan kita dengan orang yang salah

kenapa aku post benda ni? sebab tiba2 rasa macam baru bangun dari mimpi. masa bercinta semuanya indah. pertolongan yang kita rasa ikhlas rupanya ikhlas masa tu je kot. nvm, ada hikmah disebalik semua ni. tapi rasa lega sebab dah tak payah fikir lagi. xpa deya, susah sekejap saja.
* pat myself at the back*

1. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya apabila kita bertemu jodoh yg sebenar, masih ada rasa syukur kita pada ketentuanNYA.

2. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat menjadi penilai yg baik.

3. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita sedar bahawa kita hanyalah makhluk yg sentiasa mengharapkan pertolongan ALLAH.

4. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat KASIH SAYANG YANG TERBAIK, KHAS UNTUK DIRI KITA.

5. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita sedar bahawa ALLAH MAHA PEMURAH & PENYAYANG kerana mengingatkan kita bahawa dia bukanlah pilihan yg hebat untuk kita dan kehidupan kita pada masa depan.

6. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat mengutip pengalaman yg tak semua orang berpeluang untuk mengalaminya.

7. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita jadi MANUSIA YG HEBAT JIWANYA.

8. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita lebih faham bahawa CINTA YG TERBAIK HANYA ADA BERSAMA ALLAH.

9. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita LEBIH MENGENALI KEHIDUPAN YG TAK SELAMANYA KEKAL.


guess i leran from mistaket. belajar dari kesilapan aku. biarpun susah, tapi aku bersyukur sebab kerana dari pengalaman, i've found my Mr. Right. Alhamdullilah. so after this, no more worries Deya. concentrate utk this Sunday n tahun depan! =)

where do broken hearts go..?

where do broken hearts go?  where...?  =( 

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.

my heart is nothing special to you.... i know i am not special... i am nothing like them...    guess i didn't try hard enough... =(

long distance

try to make things easier.. macam tak boleh je.... found this tips at http://www.mischiefmydear.com

Ashe’s 10 Tips for Making Long Distance Love Easier

• Webcams make it more intimate. It seems kind of weird to go back to something that seems so 90s, but having a webcam so you can chat (via Skype or G-chat) makes the distance seem less far. The first time I saw the Beau on webcam I started crying, because it was so nice to see his face.
• Say it more often: I love you. I miss you. You’re handsome/beautiful/stunning/perfect.
• Have dates, even long distance. Most of my friends think it’s cute, but the Beau and I have movie/tv dates. We’ll pick a show or movie we both love, settle down at the same time, and watch together. We pause at the same times, we text to discuss what is happening (or if it’s really good, call shrieking at each other). Sometimes we even go so far as to have the same dinner (like pizza).
• Count down the days. When we’re within a two week period, the Beau & I send each other daily texts– 12 more sleeps! 9 more sleeps! It’s a simple, sweet way to convey the excitement of being together again soon.
• Use that time to grow as individuals. It’s so easy for young couples to get complacent with each other, and forget to challenge each other. Use your time apart as essential time to grow– and share the growth and changes with each other (otherwise you might grow apart!). Once you’re back together, it’ll make you stronger as a couple to have your interests and hobbies a stronger part of your life.
• Learn to compromise. Because long distance? It requires a lot of it. Somehow, I think it almost seems to require more of it for the Beau & I now than when we lived together. It’s easy to breed resentment when only one person does the visiting or is making the phone calls. You both have to be actively participating to make it work.
• Talk about the future– remember that there’s an end! Beau & I like to talk about the travels we’ll have, or design our ideal bedroom, plan for holidays with our families. Don’t use it to add pressure, but rather… as reminiscing. But for the future and not the past. Make small plans for when you’re together– buying museum memberships, cooking meals together.
• Challenge each other. Encourage each other. Use this as an extension of growing as individuals. The Beau has started a dungeons & dragons blog. So I send him daily tasks–ways to help him that I had to learn how. Things like leaving comments on other blogs or forums, teaching him about SEO. It gives me a chance to shine, challenge him and help him grow, all while encouraging him in something he loves (writing & gaming).
• Use that time to get to know each other again. Even as you guys rack up the notches on how long you’ve been together, there’s a time when stop communicating with each other. Long distance love makes it easier to start that honeymoon phase in your relationship all over again– you have nothing else but talking. You can’t touch and you can’t get too comfortable with each other.
• Trust, Honesty, & Only a Little Jealousy. It’s hard NOT to be jealous, and sometimes I like having my man a wee bit jealous (reminds him I’m a foxy bitch & he’s a lucky bastard). But if you let it…. the distance can really help eliminate jealousy in a relationship. I’m more secure in our relationship now than I ever was while we were together. It happens because you talk about how much you want each other, miss each other, can’t wait to be together again. It happens because when you spend so little time together, you see more often the love in their eyes. So when you go away…. that’s all you remember

lau dah try tapi tak leh gak camne? *sigh*

close to you

this post is tribute to the sayang. lagi 3 hari dah 3 bulan. hepi anniversary sayang. and hepi birthday to my dear fren Ayu and Farid.

mesti korang cakap.. ala baru 3 bulan dah kecoh... 3 bulan tu rasa macam dah 3 tahun tau! hepi sangat dengan dia.. walaupun ada gaduh standard la... thanx syg for being very understanding =) thanx sebab sabar sangat dengan perangai saya ni... kejap ada sunshine, kejap hujan, kejap ribut, tsunami pun ada.. =p sayang dia... temokk =p





see... saya ejek dia pun dia senyum je.. sangat ceria dia ni... suke sangat dengar dia wat lawak.. mcm wat ejek trompet tu... walaupun annoying tapi mesti nak gelak gak.. heeee =)) rindunya...
teruskan senyum yer pakcik... bisa gugur jantung saya. sejuk hati tengok senyuman dia.. rasa macam minum white lady. heeee =)

everythings gonna be ok!

tak bleh tdo ar... googling tadi, jumpa lagu everthings gonna be ok version jamie. best la... dedicated to my dear fren Ayu, MSAR, and Fit. jom karok! hehehe..

Everything’s gonna be alright
Everything’s gonna be okay
Everything’s gonna be alright, ey

I never thought the sun
Could fall from way up high
These tears complete my pain
I sit and reminisce
Your touch, your kiss, your smile
I’ll miss your tenderness
You know deep down inside
That our love will never die

[Chorus]
Everything’s gonna be alright
Everything’s gonna be okay
Everything’s gonna be alright
Takes just one day at a time
Take my breath away
Love’s a day
Everything be okay

Everything gonna be alright now
Everything gonna be okay now

You will always be my strength
You’ve always been my friend
Pulled through thick and thin
The music in my life
Don’t miss a single beat
So baby lay here for awhile
I watch you while you sleep
And my heart is yours to keep

[Chorus]

Everything gonna be alright now
Everything gonna be okay now
You make everything seem right
The apple of my eye
Stay with me tonight
Can you take my breath away
Let today
Everything be okay

Everything’s gonna be alright
We’ll be okay
Got to take just one day at a time
My breath away
You give your love today
Everything be okay
Everything gonna be alright
We’ll be okay
If we take just one day at a time
My breath away
Everything be okay

1234...

rindu setengah mati... terjiwang la plak malam ni... hadooo seksa nya kan lau dah rindu orang... bila la baru aku leh get used dengan keadaan macam ni... bila googling tadi, cara2 nak menghilangkan rasa rindu, terjumpa lak tips2 ni :

a) Jangan terlalu kerap menghubungi individu yang dirindui. Ini bagi mengurangkan tahap sayang terhadap individu terbabit..
b) Sentiasa menyibukkan diri dengan aktiviti luar.. Dengan melakukan aktiviti luar sedikit sebanyak kerinduaan terhadap seseorang itu dapat dikurangkan.
c) Terdapat juga kes-kes mereka yang merindui orang yang telah pergi meninggalkan diri.. Kita seeloknya patut lebih realistik dengan kehidupan.. Cuba-cubalah mencari rakan-rakan yang baru bagi menggantikan yang telah pergi..
d) Bagi mereka yang belajar di luar negara sudah semestinya rindu pada kampung halaman menjadi sesuatu yang tidak dapat dielakkan.. Banyak-banyakkan berjalan dan melihat dunia ciptaan ALlah yang luas ini.
e) Berdoa dan sentiasa ingat kepada Tuhan. Bagi yang beragama Islam amat-amatlah digalakkan untuk beribadat samada solat, membaca Al-QUran, berdoa dan sebagainya. Ini sudah semestinya cara yang efektik dan sentiasalah merinduiNya… AMIN..
f) Mencari hobi yang mampu mengisi kekosongan perasaan rindu.. Anda boleh mencuba banyak hobi seperti melukis, menulis, origami dan sebagainya..

*credits to blog zool ligakampung

tips yang lain aku rasa aku leh try. tapi yang (a) tu aku tak boleh. memang tak boleh. kurang menghubungi? oh tidak2. memang malam ni rasa sangat moody. text the sayang. memang dia sangat sabar la. rasa lega pas sms-ing dengan dia. he give me more loving than I’ve ever had.Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad.Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not.Make me feel good when I hurt so bad.Barely getting mad.I’m so glad I found you temok.I love being around you.You make it easy as easy as 1234.Three words for you. ***I love you. =)***





by the by, lagu ini sangat slow.tapi layan je. heeee... rindu setengah mati la. tapi tak mati lagi.hee

saranghe =)

i know my post kali ni a bit basi. but i don't care.. heyy it's my blog anyway. so ican post anything yang saya nak hehehehe.. seminggu b4 i left KL, me and my sayang spent a lot of our quality time together. and for me tempat paling best is at Bukit Tinggi. the view is very oversea one.thank you sayang, i do appreciate it. t ada masa kita g lagi okeyyy *mwahs* tak nak cakap banyak, let the photos do the talking ngeee =)

i heart him =)


korea @ japan?

boleh x amik gambar kawen kat sini? plz.. plz.. \^o^/


tatami spa


errkkk!! kids plz don't try this at home..LOL


see... sangat oversea kan?


WE LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER heeee =)


okie. till then!

saya rindu dia =)

holaa.... i'm back! it's been ages i did not post anything. well i'm back here at my hometown Miri. Hepi ke? ntah.... but i left sumthing precious back there in KL.my sayang. huuu saya sangat rindu dia. sudah 23 hari saya tidak jumpa dia. huuu sangat rindu ok. kenapa saya rindu dia? he's my sunshine after the rain, he'll motivate me when i'm feeling down. thanx a lot syg. mwahsssss i do hope and pray, semoga jodoh kami berpanjangan. and kepada semua kaum hawa di luar sana, jangan ngorat dia ok. jangan cuba2 ok..he's mine!! ngeee =)

gudbye mak ='(

this entry is gonna be the saddest entry ever. hari ni kenduri tahlil mak aku. it's been 3 years she's been leaving us due to her cervical cancer. how i hate that cancer so much. she died on the day of my convocation. how sad was that? i thought 14/07/06 will be the most happiest day of my life. because i have completed my 3 and half suffering years at the college. but who knows, hari yang sama mak aku pergi. ='(. the last thing that i do for her was clipped her nails and suap dia makan ikan tenggiri goreng. masa tu kat hospital. petang tu aku nak g KL for the convocation. and the mom said "mak sik pegi. ambik gambar banyak2 ah. nah duit." at that moment, i refuse to take the money. because aku baru je keja. and the money untuk standby bayar result biopsi test dia. tapi dia cakap "ambik. lepas tok sekda mak berik gik." siapa tahu kan apa yang dia cakap tu betul.

sedih bila ingat how she suffer when she's been admitted at the Sarawak General Hospital Kuching. The nurses was so rude and the trainee doctor treated her macam tikus ujikaji kat makmal. Adik aku pernah sound doctor perempuan tu. Masa aku ngan adik pegi hospital balik sebab nak pulangkan ubat morphin mak aku, the doctor was very shocked. He did not aspect that my mom pergi secepat tu.

My dear friends, please help me in reciting Al-Fatihah for her. terima kaseh. i love you mak. may Allah bless you. Amin. ='(

i love you, mak. =,(

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please please click here. sangat best okay????!!!!

tetiba aku rasa nak belajar main piano. hahahahaha berangan je dulu ek?