hello hello

hello hello... i really  like.. no! loveeeeee this band so much. lee hong ki!! sarang hae  mida!!

Saying goodbye, hello-hello, now goodbye-goodbye

A word, a word that means “you’re the one I love”
A word that means “I can’t forget you”
A word that means ”come back to me again”
No, it’s not the time to come
I really loved you

Listen up!
Nobody-nobody-nobody no on
There’s no one like you
Maybe this well keep going strong and in ten years
There still won’t be anyone like you

A word that means ”I’m an idiot to only look at you”
Today I want to shout to you

Saying goodbye, hello-hello, now goodbye-goodbye
I keep trying to forget you, but I can’t
I hello-hello oh you goodbye-goodbye
I mean, until now I’ve loved you

A word, a word that means  ”I want to see you”
A word that means “I can’t send you away”
A word that means “please don’t go away”
No, I’m not saying we’re parting
I still love you

Listen up! I came to say goodbye
Saying that I love you, it made a fool out of me
I can’t forget all the times we spent together
Therefore, I went away
You’re not the only one for me
You’re just another one saying goodbye

Look at me, and tell me a lie
I really mean you should leave me

Saying goodbye, hello-hello, now goodbye-goodbye
I keep trying to forget you, but I can’t
I hello-hello oh you goodbye-goodbye
I mean, until now I’ve loved you

Everybody say la-la-la
Everybody say ha-ha-ha
Everybody say ta-ta-ta
Everybody say hello-hello-hello
When I call for you, “Hello”
When you call for me, “Goodbye”
We have different sad greetings

Because I love you, hello-hello, no goodbye-goodbye
Even when you’re far away, you’re still my love
I, hello-hello, oh you, goodbye-goodbye
I’m crying today, calling for your greeting

Hello-hello, now goodbye-goodbye
I keep trying to forget you, but I can’t
I hello-hello oh you goodbye-goodbye
I mean, until now I’ve loved yo

where do broken hearts go..?

where do broken hearts go?  where...?  =( 

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.

my heart is nothing special to you.... i know i am not special... i am nothing like them...    guess i didn't try hard enough... =(

i want one!!

hi peeps... i want new makeup!! i want one!  >_<

 

 

i really like loveeeee this perfume. last cari kat semua counter Benefit, diaorang cakap dah sold out and maybe takkan release lagi. huuu so sad =(

rain, rain...

it's raining on me... inside and outside... huuuu.... =( rain rain go away...

long distance

try to make things easier.. macam tak boleh je.... found this tips at http://www.mischiefmydear.com

Ashe’s 10 Tips for Making Long Distance Love Easier

• Webcams make it more intimate. It seems kind of weird to go back to something that seems so 90s, but having a webcam so you can chat (via Skype or G-chat) makes the distance seem less far. The first time I saw the Beau on webcam I started crying, because it was so nice to see his face.
• Say it more often: I love you. I miss you. You’re handsome/beautiful/stunning/perfect.
• Have dates, even long distance. Most of my friends think it’s cute, but the Beau and I have movie/tv dates. We’ll pick a show or movie we both love, settle down at the same time, and watch together. We pause at the same times, we text to discuss what is happening (or if it’s really good, call shrieking at each other). Sometimes we even go so far as to have the same dinner (like pizza).
• Count down the days. When we’re within a two week period, the Beau & I send each other daily texts– 12 more sleeps! 9 more sleeps! It’s a simple, sweet way to convey the excitement of being together again soon.
• Use that time to grow as individuals. It’s so easy for young couples to get complacent with each other, and forget to challenge each other. Use your time apart as essential time to grow– and share the growth and changes with each other (otherwise you might grow apart!). Once you’re back together, it’ll make you stronger as a couple to have your interests and hobbies a stronger part of your life.
• Learn to compromise. Because long distance? It requires a lot of it. Somehow, I think it almost seems to require more of it for the Beau & I now than when we lived together. It’s easy to breed resentment when only one person does the visiting or is making the phone calls. You both have to be actively participating to make it work.
• Talk about the future– remember that there’s an end! Beau & I like to talk about the travels we’ll have, or design our ideal bedroom, plan for holidays with our families. Don’t use it to add pressure, but rather… as reminiscing. But for the future and not the past. Make small plans for when you’re together– buying museum memberships, cooking meals together.
• Challenge each other. Encourage each other. Use this as an extension of growing as individuals. The Beau has started a dungeons & dragons blog. So I send him daily tasks–ways to help him that I had to learn how. Things like leaving comments on other blogs or forums, teaching him about SEO. It gives me a chance to shine, challenge him and help him grow, all while encouraging him in something he loves (writing & gaming).
• Use that time to get to know each other again. Even as you guys rack up the notches on how long you’ve been together, there’s a time when stop communicating with each other. Long distance love makes it easier to start that honeymoon phase in your relationship all over again– you have nothing else but talking. You can’t touch and you can’t get too comfortable with each other.
• Trust, Honesty, & Only a Little Jealousy. It’s hard NOT to be jealous, and sometimes I like having my man a wee bit jealous (reminds him I’m a foxy bitch & he’s a lucky bastard). But if you let it…. the distance can really help eliminate jealousy in a relationship. I’m more secure in our relationship now than I ever was while we were together. It happens because you talk about how much you want each other, miss each other, can’t wait to be together again. It happens because when you spend so little time together, you see more often the love in their eyes. So when you go away…. that’s all you remember

lau dah try tapi tak leh gak camne? *sigh*

hati ini..

.... saya serabut sangat hari ni... saya... penat sangat hari ni... saya... sedih sangat hari ni...

kepala saya berdenyut-denyut dari pagi sampai sekarang... saya dok kat kaunter maut hari ni...saya... buat silap kat tempat keja.... saya.. orang baru... saya tak sampai 2 bulan kat sini.... tapi kenapa officer tu siasat saya tadi.. macam saya ni sengaja buat silap... macam saya ni buat projek... kenapa sampai tanya adik beradik saya masih sekolah ke... kenapa sampai tanya mak ayah saya ada lagi ke... saya tau diorang pandang saya macam saya orang miskin... saya takde keta.... saya tau saya bukan orang kaya... memang ayah saya sakit... tapi walau saya takde duit sekalipun, saya takkan buat benda haram... walau saya terpaksa mengemis sekalipun. saya bangga dengan diri sendiri.. walaupun saya pegi keje jalan kaki, saya berusaha untuk cari duit halal. saya bukan macam orang2 tu beli keta dengan 'hasil tu.' walau saya bukan makan sedap2 mcm korang... bukan kfc bukan starbucks bukan McD setiap hari, walaupun saya jemu makan makanan yang saya masak sendiri, saya takkan buat kerja haram tu. jangan perlekehkan saya sebab ayah saya lumpuh sebelah badan.. ayah saya tak buta.. kenapa awak 'jaga' diaorang yang btol2 buat. kenapa awak butakan mata pekak kan telinga... kawan2 rapat saya semua mintak pindah... saya nk kawan dengan siapa? ='(

hidup saya jadi serabut kerana "manusia tu". saya tau semua orang ada kisah silam. semua orang penah buat silap. tapi kenapa sekarang baru sedar. saya bersyukur kerana saya putuskan semua ini. kelaurga ko hina aku. dulu ko bangga dengan dosa2 yang ko buat. kenapa perlu ganggu hidup orang lain kalau ko tak bahagia. aku bukan siapa2 lagi. jangan ingat sebab aku takde mak, mak ko boleh terus fitnah aku. biarlah mak ko bangga dengan anak dia tu yang "pandai" jaga maruah sendiri. well done.

saya cuba tahan diri tak tanya apa2.tapi... saya manusia... kalau boleh saya nak sibukkan diri 24jam.. supaya saya tak terlalu nak ambik tau... tapi orang kata kalau kita sayang orang tu, setiap saat kita fikirkan dia. saya rasa sebab sayang saya suka ambik tau.sebab serabut saya selalu cari awak supaya saya dapat lupakan masalah saya. walaupun tak lupa sekurang-kurangnya saya rasa lega. guess everything is getting worse... ='( saya tak nak apa2...


no one will know how i feel..without walking in my shoes..





.... always there...

Block the light
When you leave, it has to be dark
Cover the sun
When you return, I might look foolish
I sit and think at the place where we made our promise
Will I be able to share the love I have for you?
Even if my mind was erased,
I wouldn't forget your face
Your face is clear when I am full of sad memories and tears
Even if I emptied my heart,
Our memories will still hold its place
Because I'm so sad, so hurt,
You're the only one I can see
Even if my mind was erased,
I wouldn't forget your face
Your face is clear when I am full of sad memories and tears
Even if I emptied my heart,
Our memories will still hold its place
Because I'm so sad, so hurt,
You're the only one I can see

close to you

this post is tribute to the sayang. lagi 3 hari dah 3 bulan. hepi anniversary sayang. and hepi birthday to my dear fren Ayu and Farid.

mesti korang cakap.. ala baru 3 bulan dah kecoh... 3 bulan tu rasa macam dah 3 tahun tau! hepi sangat dengan dia.. walaupun ada gaduh standard la... thanx syg for being very understanding =) thanx sebab sabar sangat dengan perangai saya ni... kejap ada sunshine, kejap hujan, kejap ribut, tsunami pun ada.. =p sayang dia... temokk =p





see... saya ejek dia pun dia senyum je.. sangat ceria dia ni... suke sangat dengar dia wat lawak.. mcm wat ejek trompet tu... walaupun annoying tapi mesti nak gelak gak.. heeee =)) rindunya...
teruskan senyum yer pakcik... bisa gugur jantung saya. sejuk hati tengok senyuman dia.. rasa macam minum white lady. heeee =)

all about food

i cooked for myself today. ^-^v *proud*

bwekk.. hehehe... saya bekerja keras hari ini. since semalam tak makan nasi, i've rewarded myself with gud fud. heee tak malu. *pout*

so... the menu.... menu hari ini ialah menu yang baru first time aku nak masak. jeng.. jeng... jeng...

lobster asam pedas



the ingredients - brinjal, lemongrass, ladies fingers, daun kaffir lime's , and belimbing tunjuk (org swk pgl tu la... bahasa len aku tak tau =p)



encik lobster.


and the secreto ingredients.....


perencah ini memang best. sedap.. nyaman.. my fren, Florence pun cakap sedap. dia letak cendawan innoki and jadikan paste ni sebagai sup kimchi.


and let me present to you the results...





aku lupa amik gambar.... aku lapa sangatttt... dah kenyang baru ingat. huuuu *frust*


pastu kol 7 tadi aku masak lagi... lapa okayy... =p


menu- la pasta mushroom n herbs.




the ingredients... suma segera pun hhehehe


nyaman. mushroom tu potong sendiri la... bukan datang lam pack tu hehe

pardon me, mi amigas, for the poor quality of the photos. pakai hp je pun.. hehe

bila hati sunyi...

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rasa sunyi sgt....since pindah sini, rasa macam mati je... tapi aku cuba bertahan... buat2 berfikiran positif.... tapi aku tak mampu.... aku menangis dalam solat... Allah... terimalah solat aku..

Ya Allah.. aku tak mampu menanggung perasaan ini ya Allah. bantu lah aku Ya Allah...tolong la aku Ya Allah... ='(

hidup aku selalu macam ni.. terlalu banyak dugaan aku dah rasa.. dari kecik sampai sekarang.. tak ada yang mudah.rasanya suma tu untuk ajar aku erti sabar. tapi aku tak mampu lagi Ya Allah... aku rela keja terok dari hadapi hidup yang sepi ni Ya Allah.... ='( hanya engkau tempat aku mengadu Ya Allah... jadikan lah aku hamba Mu yang tenang Ya Allah.. Ya Allah aku tak mampu hentikan tangisan setiap hari Ya Allah... bantu lah aku Ya Allah... ='(