i am not perfect

No one is perfect... that's why pencils have erasers.

disapointed =(

hmmm... dalam sebulan mesti la ada sad things happen to me. got bad news from my friends.... hmm rasa nya macam sia-sia je keja... punah la harapan nak gi KL. =(

ntahla manusia.... mudah dikaburi bila tengok duit banyak... kenapa menzalimi kami? sia-sia aku wat OT 236jam. Penat keja 6.ooam - 10.oo pm 3 hari berturut-turut time public holiday... standby sampai kol 12mlm. ini yang aku dapat? so sad.... manusia2... kenapa ko la ko tak fikir, duit yang ko makan tu duit kami yang susah. yang kerja macam anjing demi nak dapatkan duit. tapi.... ko senang2 ambik... =(

| MEMBUKA AIB ORANG? |

"WARDINA BERI BLOGGER TEMPOH 14 HARI"

okey...  this is what i read from the paper. It's because the blogger dakwa Wardina join PKR. i don't give a damn regarding the political issues, but yang wat aku geram blogger tu siarkan gambar wardina masa dia tak bertudung dulu. seriously, that bastard should be  must be sued by wardina. membuka aib orang? huh memang tak patut. cuba fikir orang tu dah ada suami dan anak, apa prasaan diaorang. publishing that kind of photo isn't something that you could be proud of. banyak lagi gambar lain yang ada. stupidddddd!

life is so cool \^O^/

hye2 peeps... lagi nak 2 jam aku nak masuk keje.. nak blogging jap. heard gud news from my dear fren ayu. Alhamdulillah.... terima kaseh Allah kerana membantu. So sekarang sudah bersemangat nak g keje. tapi aku lupa arini ari Jumaat... mesti kete banyak hoooo... tapi takpe. ganbate! cayok! \^o^/

****** tink i'm so addicted to Jamie's song. uplifting songs. sukeeee *****

I never really try to be positive
I'm too damn busy being negative
So focused on what I get
And never understand what it means to live
You know we all love to just complain
But maybe we should try to rearrange
There's always someone
Who's got it worse than you

(chorus)
Life is so cool
Life is so cool
Oh yeah
From a different point of view
Life is so cool
Life is so cool
Oh yeah
From a different point of view

(verse 2)
We're all so busy tryin'to get ahead


Got a pillow of fear when we go to bed
We're never satisfied
The grass is greener on the other side
We're so distracted with the jealousy
Forget it's in our hands to stop the agony
Will you ever be content
On your side of the fence?

(verse 3)
Maybe you're the guy who needs a second chance
Maybe you're the girl who's never asked to dance
Maybe you're lonely soul
A single mother scared and all alone
Gotta remember we live what we choose
It's not what you say It's what you do
And the life you want
Is the life you have to make

everything happens for a reason

hye.. hye peeps. how's ur day today? mine? today is my off day. tapi kena datang keja gak wat OT. luckily office hours. so today went home at 2.30 pm. sempat masak, basuh baju, kemas umah, cuci toilet. but today my boss text me... apa yang dia bagitau btol2 buat aku terkejut. tapi what can i say... i am nobody to judge orang tu. harap2 dia selamat and semoga Allah bantu dia.
felt so sorry for him, tapi nak wat camana .semoga apa yang berlaku boleh buat dia lebih matang lagi dan ajar dia erti kesabaran. bersabar la my dear fren, aku akan tolong ko kalau ko perlu. and be strong my dear fren ayu, insyallah takde papa. kita berdoa je untuk dia k. *hugs*
watched MHI this morning. ustaz tu cakap, Allah turunkan kita ujian sebab Dia sayang kita. so kita anggap je semua ni ujian untuk dia. untuk kita juga supaya beringat. Macam pagi tadi, aku memang rasa bengang sangat sebab kena g keje gak. tapi on the positive side, aku leh bergaul ngan kawan2 baru. lau tak sebab gotong royong, mesti aku takkan ada masa nak bercampur dengan diaorang. tapi mana mungkin aku akan jumpa kawan2 yang sebest kat JIM damansara. environment yang sama. pengalaman yang sama. and yang penting the sayang pun kat sana. huhu tetiba touching lak... =(
kadang-kadang kita tak sedar, bila kita terlalu senang, kita lupa Allah. Bila kita susah, baru kita sibuk cari telekung and sejadah. kita lupa nak bersyukur.bila dah terkena baru kita sedar. dulu aku macam tu. tapi since aku ada the sayang, dia selalu pesan kat aku, jangan tinggal solat. bersyukur sangat jumpa dia. =) dulu selalu je sedih2. tapi dah jumpa dia rasa happy sangat and ada semangat nak teruskan kehidupan walaupun susah. see... everything happens for a reason.benda tu takkan simply berlaku tanpa sebab.

ok dah.

minat sangat kat aizat...

P.O.K.O.K

Pokok - MUH & Hazama

Tersesat malu bertanya
Tak tahu tak tahu kemana
Terlalu banyak alasannya
Ku terdiam

Menyusur dikaki lima
Terlihat bayang wajah kelmarin
Tersentuh hati bagai luruh

Tanya sama pokok apa sebab goyang
Jawab angin yang goncang
Terbang burung terbang
Patah sayap diduga
Seandainya rebah
Kau masih ada

Terlalu mahu dan mahu
Terlupa apa yang perlu
Terlalu banyak alasannya
Duk terdiam

Tak mudah namun tak susah
Terserah atas pilihan
Tersentuh hati mula luruh

Tanya sama pokok apa sebab goyang
Jawab angin yang goncang
Terbang burung terbang
Patah sayap diduga
Seandainya rebah
Kau masih ada

La la la la la la la la la
La la la la la la la lalalalalaaaa

Kau masih ada
Kau masih ada
Kau masih ada

Terlalu mahu dan mahu
Terlupa apa yang perlu
Terlalu banyak alasannya
Duk terdiam

Tak mudah namun tak susah
Terserah atas pilihan
Tersentuh hati mula luruh

Tanya sama pokok

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really like this song. sangat suka MUH. an uplifting song. MUH rocks!

syukur dan sabar

hi peeps... how's ur weekend? mine? as usual m working. patutnya jap lagi balik kol 2. tapi for some reasons yang aku agak menyampah nak taip kat sini, kena stayback sampai kol 4. dah 2 hari aku kerja full. semalam balik kol 12. aku dah jadi macam zombie ni. demi nak dapatkan duit even 1 sen,
aku kerja gak. been wondering, since masuk kerja, aku asyik mengeluh je. *sigh*
tapi dari pagi tadi aku cuba muhasabah diri. dari pagi tadi aku serve public yang nak pergi kerja kat Brunei, majoriti kaum bukan Melayu. Tapi kaum bumiputera Swk. diorg g keje naik motor je. yes motorsikal. ada yang even baru mampu ambik lesen dan beli motor, sebab aku nampak ada pelekat L. bila aku tanya, public tu cakap baru mampu amik lesen.yang sedih semalam, hujan lebat gila, diorg still gak g dengan motor tu. pakai baju hujan, pasport dalam beg plastik. sempat gak la aku interview diaorg

aku : sik susah ka pegi keja k moto? (tak susah ke g keje naik motor?)
encik public : gne gaya. carik duit. ( nak wat camana. nak cari duit)
aku : sekpa. gaji besar owh. ( takpe,gaji besar kan)
encik public : ney ada. beza RM500 jak. minyak lagik, tol gik. (mana ada. beza RM500 je. minyak lagi, tol lagi.)
aku : dah ya kenak keja sinun? (dah tu kenapa kerja kat sana?)
encik public : susah carik kerja di miri tok. (susah cari kerja kat Miri ni)

aku senyum. which is true indeed. if u can't converse in mandarin, jangan harap la nak dapat keje. pagi tadi aku nampak makcik guard, umur dalam 50an, jalan- jalan cari tin minuman kosong. i bet dia nak jual tin tu kat timbang kati. rasa kesian. betapa diorang susah nak cari duit untuk terus hidup. tapi aku? kerja duduk dalam aircond, cuma perlu cop pasport dan key in, tapi dah mengeluh. (tapi memang la penat. tadah telinga kena maki lagi) berbanding dengan diorang yang lebih susah, tak boleh ke aku berhenti mengeluh? (padan muka diri sendiri)

setiap orang Allah akan kurniakan rezeki, cuma susah atau senang je nak dapat. so aku pun berfikir, kalau cari rezeki ni senang, dah tentu aku tak tahu nak bersyukur. dah susah macam ni pun aku asyik mengeluh dan tak bersyukur, lagi la bila senang kan. bila disuruh OT, buat je la kan. anggap tu rezeki dan peluang dapat duit lebih biar pun susah. diorang g keje yang beratus km jauh dari rumah tak mengeluh, yang aku ni jalan kaki 10 minit sampai je pun nak mengeluh. *padan muka aku lagi*

so start dari hari ini, saya akan belajar bersyukur dan bersabar. Insyaallah. Ya Allah, aku selalu lupa untuk bersyukur padaMu.ampunkanlah aku diatas kelalaian diri sendiri.

ok dah.

big girls don't cry =(

hmm.... don't know what went wrong... nothing to do with orang lain. it's me. i think i have been a bit emoish for the last 4 days. asyik rasa nak marah, nak nangis, tensen, hmmm ntahla. maybe sebab PMS symptom. tapi maybe sebab banyak benda nak fikir. and tak tau nak luah kat sapa. tak nak menyusahkan and merisaukan orang lain. it's personal myself and i.
maybe sebab dah biasa susah.so bila ada masalah semua pun nak settle sendiri. tak nak susahkan orang lain. but then when it comes for me tuk selesaikan probs ending nya mesti aku nangis. nangis dan nangis. penat la menangis. tapi menangis tu ibarat pujukan untuk diri sendiri. ada tak dalam dunia ni machine yang leh settle kan masalah kita? lau ada kan best. dah tentu aku orang pertama yang akan beli.
common la.... semua orang ada masalah. menangis sampai bila pun takkan selesai kan masalah... =( kesian kat sayang. tahan ke dia nak dengar me marah2, moody. by the by, suka sangat ngan lagu ni.

get to know myself better??

i've taken a personality test that i read from someone else's blog. her name is Firda. *credits* Thanx ya for posting the url. the quiz is about getting to know ourselves better. and i found that the quiz is very psycho. i mean, it's not that "psycho", but it make my brain turns wild imagining the situation while answering the question. so did i get to know myself better. think so!

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

eee... sometime's i do like conflict! hehehehe

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

this is sooooo trueee. i'm avoiding handsome good looking guy.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

yes. very true indeed! that's why my "exes"-bf is actually a friend that i know since my school/study

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

haiya.... true also..... but it's not that deep and beautifully in love. saya tidak jiwang. biasa2 saja wokeyyy?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

yes... yes... very true. i don't like to study. but now i'm working in the field that i studied during college. so me not wasting my parents money okeyyy?

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

erkk... everybody needs secure job and steady income aight?

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

hahaha... macam tau2 je. but not that precisely betul, but kalau jadi workaholics, i'm sure your family/bf/husband/kids will not happy because you can't spend time with them. so i choose FAMILY FIRST. hehehe

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

erk... so not true. i don't care about what people will say about my appearance. it's my body not yours. so who cares! haiks!

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

honestly i think this part is sooo true. okey i don't care if u wanna puke or what (go ahead ready your plastic bag ahahaha). but most of my friends told me before. dunno why. but i don't mind. because that's what friends are for. *pats self at the back*

so you guys out there should try this test. or just to kill your time perhaps. hihihi.... try it here

kalau amoi cantik saja dapat bercinta, bagaimana pula dengan kita?

ya... serious post this time. i've been wondering, if guys only like sexy and beautiful girls, who's gonna like orang macam saya? i mean not all ladies out there dressed sexy-to-kill, beautiful, etc.

i never thought that guys nowadys are still looking for the same criteria in a women.generally everybody know, i'm sure, they like sexy-hot-sizzling-looking, manja ala-ala ella,beautiful outside but inside, omg very wicked i tell you! I'm not bias, but as far as i know, ladies tak lah pandang rupa, as long as that guy handsome kat hati. kalau muka handsome kira bonus lah, but for me i am and will avoid for a guy with very good looking. makan hati nanti. tak rela i. auwwww =)) but as for man. i'm asking you guys. kenapa pandang rupa? but not for the heart and the brain?? you guys suke beauty without brain ker? tepuk dada tanya selera. but i am not blaming you guys for all this. i've found this video. watch it.then you know what i mean. =))

http://current.com/items/89199963/sexy_girls_have_it_easy.htm