gudbye mak ='(

this entry is gonna be the saddest entry ever. hari ni kenduri tahlil mak aku. it's been 3 years she's been leaving us due to her cervical cancer. how i hate that cancer so much. she died on the day of my convocation. how sad was that? i thought 14/07/06 will be the most happiest day of my life. because i have completed my 3 and half suffering years at the college. but who knows, hari yang sama mak aku pergi. ='(. the last thing that i do for her was clipped her nails and suap dia makan ikan tenggiri goreng. masa tu kat hospital. petang tu aku nak g KL for the convocation. and the mom said "mak sik pegi. ambik gambar banyak2 ah. nah duit." at that moment, i refuse to take the money. because aku baru je keja. and the money untuk standby bayar result biopsi test dia. tapi dia cakap "ambik. lepas tok sekda mak berik gik." siapa tahu kan apa yang dia cakap tu betul.

sedih bila ingat how she suffer when she's been admitted at the Sarawak General Hospital Kuching. The nurses was so rude and the trainee doctor treated her macam tikus ujikaji kat makmal. Adik aku pernah sound doctor perempuan tu. Masa aku ngan adik pegi hospital balik sebab nak pulangkan ubat morphin mak aku, the doctor was very shocked. He did not aspect that my mom pergi secepat tu.

My dear friends, please help me in reciting Al-Fatihah for her. terima kaseh. i love you mak. may Allah bless you. Amin. ='(

i love you, mak. =,(

got paid =)

woohoooo!!!!! got my payment finally from the guy who i work with for the freelance book. eventho it's only draft and not come to FA yet he paid more than half of the 50% deposit. Tskk... but its ok nevermind lah. I have to work very hard for book 2 after this. haihh

unwell

seriously m not in a good mood now. my running nose really annoys me, diarrhea some more, sore throat lah.

satu hari ni keja aku marah orang je. customer pun kena. sure korang cakap m unprofessional. eee memang lah aku tak tahan. rasa geram sangat-sangat.n m blaming "the couple" here for bringing in the virus. demmit. and now m become a health freak. feels like i want to sterilize every equip that they touched. just now i just wipe the phone using dettol. i dont care if they want to label me poyo atau apa. isk seriously aku geli. phone tu line aku korang sibuk nak guna. pakai la kat depan nyer. tu kan tempat awek ko. isk aku bencik ko eh. stupidos. sekarang satu benda pun aku tak buat. design nak kena submit petang. mata aku ni macam nak tutop je. jangan cakap otak aku. dah lama dia tido. haihhhh

pagi2 dah diaorang tu ponteng. nak dekat lunch baru muncul. aku gak yang buat keje diaorang. diaorang tak siap keje aku kena marah. sebab tak supervise diaorang. heyyy.... aku rasa lau karam singh walia dok sini pun tak tahu nak bagi perumpaan apa kat diaorang. sengal nak mampos.

n it really annoys me when i noticed that somebody touched "statue" atas my my monitor. instead of they facing me, diaorang pandang tempat lain. isk sapa la gatal tangan gilak ya. hishhhhh

the said "statue"

the dettol n the phone




my desk yang sangat sepah. ini baru separuh. the other half tak yahlah tengok. dalam kotak tu ada lagi documents. ahh shit. ini bukan tipu. ini betol2. bukan aku saja sepahkan meja coz nak amik gamba.


pose maut my niece pagi tadi. with her new Eegle Peegle toys.


the said Eegle Peegle

really love this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

please please click here. sangat best okay????!!!!

tetiba aku rasa nak belajar main piano. hahahahaha berangan je dulu ek?